i really dont get it...sjab finally revealed their true colours...so fierce...oooh....so scared...pumping is so tough...unbearable...but i cant leave...i dunno why...but i feel...as if...as if...i am stuck to it...but i still finding i very weak,..so sad...why? haiz... who would vote for a weakling to be student counsellor... who would understand me inside out? it's as if i have no one to tell my feelings to...as if no one i can confide in...life ain't wonderful anymore... its as i plunged into a world of darkness...everything is over...dreams shattered...but i would rather fulfill one's wish than i myself be happy...i want the world to be happy...i want to end all suffering and pain...i want to see the poor leading normal lives...but i cant do it...i wish eerybody to be happy...yet i am unable to practise what i preach...i am such a failure...dont know what i was born to be...i feel as if i am useless...though i can tell other people that everybody is unique...oh...why just cant i do what i want?
