whoot...exams are coming...whoot...my cca stop for a week or two...whoot...sigh...gotta work ard for my exams...HELP!!! distress signal...I rather slack anyway...But i can't slack anymore if I wanna be an S.C...hmmm that may be ggod to let me try being hardworking for a while...hahahahahahahahaha...
8:46 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
so touched by the comments in muh tagboard...sigh...maybe i over exxagerated a little...sigh...hope that i wun look so glum nxt time...I still practising a lot for sjab...hmmm...I hope to become able to save lives soon...cause I still really a junior...unbelievable...sigh...I have been really hot-tempered really...must try to control my temper, else I really gonna flare up one day...lol...imagine that...sjab rawks anyway...=P
5:51 AM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
i really dont get it...sjab finally revealed their true colours...so fierce...oooh....so scared...pumping is so tough...unbearable...but i cant leave...i dunno why...but i feel...as if...as if...i am stuck to it...but i still finding i very weak,..so sad...why? haiz... who would vote for a weakling to be student counsellor... who would understand me inside out? it's as if i have no one to tell my feelings to...as if no one i can confide in...life ain't wonderful anymore... its as i plunged into a world of darkness...everything is over...dreams shattered...but i would rather fulfill one's wish than i myself be happy...i want the world to be happy...i want to end all suffering and pain...i want to see the poor leading normal lives...but i cant do it...i wish eerybody to be happy...yet i am unable to practise what i preach...i am such a failure...dont know what i was born to be...i feel as if i am useless...though i can tell other people that everybody is unique...oh...why just cant i do what i want?
5:13 AM
Friday, April 07, 2006
cant stand it anymore...how could i end up like this...i wanted to be sc...but yet...i dun want it to take up too much of my time...why would i want to be a sc in the first place...why not i give up the wish...anyway my greatest wish isnt to be an sc anyway...sc would only take up my time...why would i want to join it?why?all i join the student counsellor is cause i want to join in the orientation camp...what a reason... i wouldnt get my wish nxt year or the year after anyway...so why would i wanna be a student counsellor...my grades arent good...only average...and teachers wont recomend me anyway...and i cant quit after i join...why?why would i want to be an sc? i really dun get the reason why...me, a weakling want to be a student counsillor? hah! fat hope...
